A Mouthful of Cigarettes
Where is the miracle from quitting smoking?
The sun went down on my second full day as a non smoker. I crawled into bed, shivering, at 2 a.m. and lay my hands over my chest and crossed my feet. Tonal chants wove into my brain, and I settled under the covers for guided meditation.
I am supposed to ‘notice’ my breathing, so I drew in a long breath through the bottoms of my feet. The air was supposed to exit out of the top of my head. My bronchi spasmed midway, and I begin to cough. At this point, I realized I was boiling hot and threw off the blankets. I stared at the mean ceiling with tears globbed in the corners of my eyes.
“You are loved,” said the voice through my ear buds.
I drew my knees up and covered my face.
The Fagerstrom test is only a number
According to the Fagerstrom test, I am a number 4 - moderately addicted to nicotine. On a scale from 0 to 10, Fagerstrom gauges the intensity of nicotine addiction using a short series of questions. Some of them are simple to answer:
☝ Do you smoke within six to thirty minutes of waking? Yes (2 points)
☝ How many cigarettes a day do you smoke? 11–20 (1 point)
